Faithful

I don't cry often.

I don't spend much time feeling my emotions deeply. But this show has time and time again brought me to a place of stillness, a place of deep sorrow and bright joy, a place in the presence of God.

I found myself often saying "if only there wasn't COVID to make this project so hard..." "If only I could have done this last year so I wouldn't have these barriers". But the truth is, I would have found something to be frustrated with then. I would have had mountains to climb.

I think this project is all the more beautiful because of the hurdles we (cast, crew, etc) are facing. It's all the more meaningful because we fought for it. We fought because we believed in it and the power it has to change us and to change others.

This show has required me to be faithful to God's promises. Faithful to the purpose I believe He has for me and for this project. I don't know who will see the "end result" (will there even be a performance to show?). I don't know who will be moved or impacted by what we have set out to do. Maybe it's just for us. Maybe it's a treasure that we get to hold and cherish. But maybe it's more. Maybe it's meant to be shared with the world.

It's my prayer that this show and these stories will be brought to the people who need to hear it at the time they are ready to receive it. I believe God will make that happen. I pray I will trust Him to impact people with this project even if I never see it and that I will have the humility to give all praise to Him if I do.